Yesterday, was the five year anniversary of my Father’s death. Anyone who’s read my prior blog posts or heard my speeches know this was a life changing event for me. It changed my outlook on life and what I needed to accomplish.

Since then I’ve earned a graduate degree, changed jobs, learned to code, ran a marathon, and I’m writing and speaking more than ever. It’s been quite a change. Though there is still much more to do.

Yesterday was still a sad day. When I was writing my morning pages I was getting a little emotional thinking about my father. It was mostly about how much he would have loved my kids. He would have been a great grandfather. That’s what gets to me. A lot of regret for the things we could have done but didn’t do. Though it’s hard to be too sad. These past five years have also been some of the best years of my life. I’ve been working hard to be the best version of myself. I have a woman I love, healthy kids, I’m in the best shape of my life, I’m reading more than ever, and learning new things.

In the end, I still miss my father like it’s the first anniversary. The only way I know to honor him is by continuing to work hard in everything I choose to accomplish and to be the best father I can be to my kids.

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